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I'm supposed to be working on my Statistics report but i happen to be clueless about getting to it.
To begin with Stats is a subject that makes me want to rip my hair off.. =(
Recovering from the one week long fever. Finally, im actually able to eat proper meals and not throw up afterward. I havent exercised for a whole week. Haven't studied for a whole week.
See, fevers make me very miserable ..
Yesterday parents brought me to Tawakal to do a bloodtest (yeah, we all thought i had dengue)..
AND I TELL YOU, THOSE NEEDLES ARE SCARY.. yeah roll your eyes all you want but im telling you, i never knew i was this afraid of getting a bloodtest. WTF ?!
Just for the sake of it, im going to rant =)
Two weeks back my blog came under terrible fire for this entry that i made on skin colour discrimination. To begin with i don't even know why people react like such motherfucking babies to my entries. one or two of my friends started avoiding me. LOL.
Well if you are racist and you read my blog and decide you don't like it, go fuck yourselves.
OMG OKAY I JUST REALISED IVE GOT SHITLOADS OF STATS AND PHYSICS LEFT TO COMPLETE FOR TOMORROW.
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| Your Birthdate: April 2 |  You may watch someone from afar before you finally decide to make your move.
It takes a long time for you to develop an attraction to someone.
Generally, you prefer to pick who you love. Anyone who tries to rush you is in for some heartache.
Number of True Loves You'll Have: 3
Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 4
You are most compatible with people born on the 2nd, 11th, 20th, and 29th of the month. |
What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life? True love = 3??? who ar? die lar, then like that how ler? m i going to commit infidelity or it's just my wives are dying early? Heart Broken = 4 times..........if not counting gf-bf relationship and just people that u care and love, yes, been there few times, and one is really from my love interest, but nevertheless, it's over, fren now |
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It's been some time from the last time i posted something here. As i can c, the blog is slowly er..........sinking, i hope everyone will be back soon ^^ i log in almost everyday but sometimes i dun c any new changes except for the spam on the chatbox (spam queen ler).
ok, here's the scenario i wanted to give, let's just dont point fingers at anyone and i will use nicknames instead of real name. oh btw, the things i m about to say has nothing to do with the lunatics, rest assured, i just need some opinions, just to see if mine is good, or rather if i m doing the right thing. here goes nothing............
I was at my home one good evening around 6 pm and my fren, Dylan*(not real name) came over to my place and apparently he wanted to go to watch movie with some other frens. but because the show was about 10 something at night, so he had no where to lepak and came over to my place. I absolutely dun have any problem with that, my frens are always welcomed. so, because i was feeling a bit hungry, i suggested that we went out to eat something for dinner and we did. actually he said something about what i was about to say later earlier on but not so vivid. When dining, his fren called to ask y he called him. and his answer was
"eh, wake up liao ar. sian lar, i wanted to look for u and u r sleeping, got nothing to do lar, sian lar." and some other stuffs which to me is unimportant.
here is the thing, i asked myself this.........'is it boring to be with me?' i mean going out of coz. and 'oh, so i m the last option lar, got nothing to do then only find me, if got things to do, gone like the wind already'. and also "i know, i m not some cool guy like ur fren, i m just someone who is more like a geek". and i started to make unhealty comparison, dangerous thoughts of ending up everything and all. honestly, i will feel some heartache if i was the same person months back. but for now, i just take thing more lightly, i strode through this like nothing ever happened. i just dun care what other people say anymore, i know Dylan meant no harm, but mayb he did not know what he said was a bit........ugh......i dunno how to comment also. what if he was in my shoes? how would he feel?
call me overly sensitive or call me unreasonable, or even u can call me sissy. but this is not just the first scenario, there r plenty more that i m too lazy to recall and i just wan to forget everything else. some time i think it's better off i do things on my own, ALL BY MYSELF. going to movie, dinner, shopping, everythign u can think of, i prefer to do it on my own. people just take me as their last resort, their last option, when there barely have any choices left. but lets look on the bright side, they still think of me to lean on. but as a last choice? m i of so little importance to them?
That evening, i m just too lazy to shot back, i got something on that nite and i was kinda in a rush. and i dun wan to cause any unnecessary ruckus. so i just shrug it of. i was calm that nite, as if nothing happen. hahahah, i think it's a good thing. as for now, i dun invite any of them out anymore, if they wan to go out, they invite, cause i dun feel like hanging out too many times with them. this is something that i feel, i feel like leftover, waste, even though they dun take me that way, but their actions do look that way. mayb there r not sensitive about this but for me, i perceive every move i made, but of coz, something i may overlook certain things. but i tried my best to take into account other people's interest and this is very hard to keep up, and i tend to neglect my own. My frens like to hang out at places like coffeebean, starbucks and the likes, which i dun really like, and i used to folo them just to accompany them. but now, i blatantly told them that i dun like these places and if u guys are going, u can invite me but i may not be joining. so far, they went without me, hahhaha, it's a good thing also, for i dun have to reject and i dun lie. ^^
at times, i feel like being used. people always say that in this world, everyone is using everyones else, to achieve something. blah blah blah. i know there is only one person that really loves. how about us humans? humans dun love humans? everyone love people just to get something in return, its very disappointing. when u can use me, u fren me and come to me, even as last choice. being last choice mayb i m not ideal for the task or not cool enuf, heck i care about that now. but when i m of no more worth, will they still come to find me? i know some will, but how about the majority? it's disheartening to think about that, very......but i believe in unconditional love. those reading this can call me a fool or a dork. but when i like someone, i will like them till the end unless they did something bad to me and disappoint me badly. i will cherish that someone (frens, siblings, etc etc). I m more happy to give than to receive. so, no need to give me any bday presents lar if i happen to give any to u guys, hahahah, i dun mind, i m trying to forget my bday by the way, hahahha, i m getting old, need to lose the track. it sounds silly i know. hahahhaah mayb i m outta of my mind.
my question is, how people can b so insensitive? i know guys are mostly like this, they just shrug off problems just like dusts as if nothing ever happened. but someone told me that i have the emo of a lady (i know i m sissified, hahahah). i tend to think a lot about this issue. and what matter most to me is how people feel. i wan to care for people's heart but at times, in the course, i hurt mine as well. so, i m thinking of distancing a bit from eveyrone else, not physically, but emotionally. u know, something like dun get to involved in other peoples dilemma, just offer what we could. and i tend to keep healing my wound on my own, i dun trust people that easily anymore.
so fellow lunatics, please give me some comments if possible, all comments are very much appreciated. i was cornered, and i dunno if i m still at the same corner or not, i need to go into the main road. thanks again. |
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Im back =)
Classes resume tomorrow la .. 3 weeks of holiday just ZOOMED past ..
but im actually excited to go back to college and get on with the 2nd semester. too much of time without books/classes can drive me nuts.. but once classes start i know im going to wish i was on holiday.. hahaha
alright so anyhow, here's a couple of pictures just to update you people on what's been up with me.
Went to midvalley with Lali.. wanted to catch Transformers but NO TICKETS. chibailanciaotiunyama. so we just ate ice cream and went to the arcade ..and.. tried to resist from buying earrings. I've got an unhealthy addiction towards earrings and i need someone to spank me everytime i go shopping so that i dont end up buying more earrings.
She was so excited she actually forgot to read the rules of that game and ended up whacking whatever she wasnt supposed to :P
I still prefer Daytona
2 weeks back, met with lali's family and all the other jingbengs from my mom's side ..
for seafood lunch at Klang.
i had a blast =)
the usual cam-whoring in the car
i tried to get my cousins to pose like me BUT THEY JUST REFUSED ..
it ended up so funny because we started taking all kinds of fucked up poses and shit.
me and lali snapped a couple of ourselves :P
we went over to one of the cousin's house after that and started making a huge fool of ourselves. we tried to initially make a video of us dancing to Rihanna's Umbrella but it turned out to be some extremely hilarious piece of shit..
and then there was an outing to Midvalley with my college mates.
Went for BOWLING.. speaking of which, i still want to kick Magnus' ass at bowling la!
and then we went to the arcade again.. and i spent most of my time with car racing and screaming at the top of my lungs.
last weekend, my mom asked me to help her coach the school badminton players.
and so i went. NO PAY, mind you.
coached those fucktards for 2 hours.. and they play worse than shit..
yes i was frustated but i had to keep a straight face and be patient.. which is not something im very good at ..
this is me. playing with a "OMG HIT THE SHUTTLE WITH SOME BALLS PLEASE" expression..
And this is what you do when people smash shuttles at you. turn your back and RUN.
yeah as many years as i've played this game, smashes still freak me out .. wtf..
well it was kind of dissapointing, more than funny, because these people are going to represent the school and get their asses thrashed. When i was playing for the school, there were a couple of girls who could really play.
and so yes, i was a bit "wtf?"-ish when i saw these girls. they play badminton like its ballet.
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I a into the second day of the week after having made it through one of the worst Mondays since the first Monday of the Holocaust (not in the mood for political correctness). I have some serious doubts about whether anyone still reads this blog anymore, but I've been absatining from posting for awhile so I thought a little update was in order.
BLACK MONDAY
So I decided to stay in Seremban on Sunday and come in straight to work on Monday from Seremban by bus. I don't take the train because it takes basically twice the amount of time since I have to take the LRT from the train station to KLCC. There are 5 buses that go from Seremban straight to KLCC. To have any chance of getting a seat I absolutely MUST take the first bus at 6:15am.
Woke up at 5am to get ready and left with my brother rudecrudedude (another non-poster on this blog) at 5:50am arrived at 6:05 at the bus terminal and had to wait for the bus which was 5 minutes late. Trust me when I say tht the Terminal 1 bus terminal in Seremban is so disgusting and keretek smoker loaded that 15 minutes of waiting there feels like a lifetime. After spending time there I feel the need to get a toothbrush and toothpaste and literally scrub my lungs, plus I need a shower too.
Finally the bus leaves and this is the part where I drift off into air conditioned slumber until arriving at KLCC. Only the driver is a complete fucking lunatic. He was one of them cockroach drivers who keep changing lanes and I thought the bus would flip sideways a couple of times. Plus he was speeding faster than the bloody cars. Fucked up. I so would take the train since there's only so much a kampung driver can do there besides stop and move forward, but its impossibly inconvenient.
Arrived in KLCC exhausted, dehydrated and with my nerves slightly unhinged. Had coffee, read the papers, went down and got a massive Chicken Bryani breakfast since I had planned to skip lunch. Thought that the day wouldn't turn out so bad after all.
Then it happened, the meeting from hell. I was summoed for a meeting at 12:30 (meeting was supposed to be at 3pm, but let's say there was a manager with no concept of schedules and respect of other peoples' timetables involved). The meeting started at 12:30 and went on until 6pm, by which point I made up an excuse and left, ran like mad without looking back!!!!
It was the meeting that would never end. On the other hand I have made an interesting discovery in the process. Get enough malays into a room and the resulting time warp totally halts the passage of time in the room. While hours go by in the real world, they are but seconds inside the room. Nothing of importance gets discussed and conversations on who is pregnant/getting married/a datuk/a datin/ a son or daughter or a datuk or datin/gossip....you can see where I'm going with this.
I am not making this shit up when I say that meetings at work involve at the most 10% of the actual purpose of the meeting and the other 90% is bullshit, strategically placed bullshit so that people like me can't walk in, deal with the issues and leave while the rest stay to talk cock.
So with my racism further enforced and sanity crippled beyond recognition, I went home and couldn't even bring myself to game just a little bit. Sleep. Rest.
BLACK TUESDAY
Another day another dollar, and about 2 million meeting hours. I've got multiple overlapping meetings on top of my real work. I'm keeping myself sane by blogging and thinking about an issue that I need to resolve by the end of the day. There's a meeting at 5pm too, but I'm skipping that owing to a new deadly disease I have developed called Idontattendnomofugginmeetingitis. It has completely crippled my ability to give a fuck anymore.
THE GREAT QUESTION
What is the meaning of life?....is hardly an important question. My great question is should I buy a PS3 or an Xbox 360? Price is not the issue, but while the Xbox 360 can be modded and has a wide variety of games right now, I have been reading about the relatively high 33% failure rate of the Xbox 360 system online and have been scared off. There is a class action suit in progress against Microsoft that they allegedly launched a faulty product to beat their competitors to the market.
Of course games are region free, but movies aren't. If I get a PS3 I am worried I won't be able to play the Blu-Ray movies I rent in the States (voltage is not an issue for the PS3).
I guess its only a matter of time before a region free Blu Ray player is available anyway, plus PS3 can use Linux so programs abound. I don't make a PC comparison right now as the PS3 can be a comp too, just not Vista capable at this point.
Additionally the good news is that Sony just slashed the PS3 price by USD100 so I'm wondering when the discount will trickle down to the local market. I'm seriously leaning towards the PS3 but I appreciate any pro-Xbox 360 views.
Also Blu-Ray movies for Malaysia and USA are Region 1 so I can play movies from there on my PS3. Yay me!!!! I'm going tomorrow afternoon to buy so you wanna stop me....you gotta comment.
BLACK LANGKAWI AWAY DAY
The Legal Department is going off on an away day/teambuilding excursion to Langkawi next weekend and I am on the committee hence my reaching the point of lunacy due to the endless meetings.
I am being forced to perform multiple time doing ABBA, Grease and other numbers with various members of the department. The only silver lining here is that none of you will be able to see me make a complete arse of myself onstage.
I will be (1) Singing as John Travolta in our performance of 'The one that I want' from the movie 'Grease' (2) Singing 'Take a Chance on me' by Abba in a group. (3) Dancing to the song 'Sway' I think its Rhumba or Mambo and hope to god I get one of the hot girls and not some tudungfied psycho who can't touch the kafir.
BLOODY RELIGION
Since the previous post was kind of short winded, (like the poppoing of those scented tissue plastic bags at the chinese restaurant when you pop it wrong and its just a little snap sound) and because I am fucking frustrated over it.
You see today we were discussing the cover of the booklet for our away day that's retro themed (Austin Powers style) and they're like 'oooo we can't use the peace symbol its haram' and 'ooo we can have silhouettes of humans, animals etc'.
I felt like saying 'I'm gonna haRAM my foot up your asses'. Seriously fucking annoying. My melayu hate is at an all time high right now. I try to tell myself its not their fault, years of ugama classes has rendered their minds as sterile a eunuch.
I wanted to share this sight with the rest of ou about the peaceful way of life, a site set up by some ex-members of the peaceful way. I didn't post anything from it because I think it can be considered highly offensive to certain sensitive quarters and nickles. Go to
http://www.faithfreedom.org/
An read the article under 'satire' between the man who died and god. Although it directly targets one religion, I think it is a beautifully written satirical article that should apply to all religions and be read by all believers or all faiths.
Right now I am praying hard and full of zealotry in the hope that I won't get trapped in another nexus of time meeting.
DEFENSE OF THE ANCIENTS
DotA has been suffering the past two weeks without Warlock around in Seremban, I hope the faggot is coming back this weekend because trying to organise has taken years of my life. Try to go
I don't quite understand ho a person can think it is remotely acceptable to request that the timing be postponed for them AND THEN SHOW UP LATE. Don't worry SP3 this isn't targeted at you but to all practitioners of.....
THE 5 MINUTES RULE
Yes I need to get this off my chest. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH STUPID FUCKERS WHO ALWAYS SAY THEY'LL BE THERE IN 5 FUCKING MINUTES WHEN THEY'RE 15-20 MINUTES AWAY OR HAVEN'T EVEN LEFT THEIR FUCKING HOUSES!!!!!! FUCK ALL OF YOU ASSHOLES!!!!!
Ok ok *huff* *huff*
Look. People are waiting for you. People took the time to include you in their activities because they consider you a friend. People ask you what time you can make it. So if you bloody commit to a time then stick with it. People ask you if you can be there at 7, if you can say you can, if you can't say you can't. We won't be mad at you, we know you will sometimes have things to do or other commitments. Just say you can't make it, or suggest a later time.
But for heavens sake, don't suggest a time and then show up late. YOU SUGGESTED THE TIME. YOU MADE IT SO EVERYONE HAS TO SCHEDULE AROUND YOU. I mean why don't you just spit on us instead, its disgusting but infinitely less annoying.
Plus the goddam 5 minute rule. Look. I'm going to say this once. If you're 5 minutes away when we ask say you're 5 minutes away. If its fucking going to take half an hour for you to arrive or you haven't even left to meet us, don't be a humongous asshole and tell us you're 5 minutes away.
See sometimes things happen, an emergency, no transport. We can all relate to that, but don't force everyone to stand and wait for you somewhere while you behave like a tardy cheebai. Tell us you will be half an hour or even one hour late, then we can do somewhere for a drink or do something else to pass the time instead of standing around like dumb fucks in the belief that you have even the slightest bit of respect, consideration or empathy for us.
FINAL FRONTIER
I am heading off to the U.S.A. on the 27th of July and will be back around the 20th of August. So I won't be around for any activities. However once I'm back its business as usual for me with DotA, World of Warcraft and my shiny PS3.
I'm still going ahead with my move, but I am getting damn impatient with the fact that my only update is 'I am going to move...' whenever someone asks me what is going on. I need finality, even if it involves my bus overturning on the way to KL.
HADHARI TO THE MAX
So those JAIS motherfuckers are at it again, this time arresting a singer at an entertainment outlet for revealing clothing (covered by the Star strangely enough, I smell an election set-up, don't be fooled). She was basically wearing a sleeveless top and a tiny triangle missing in the back. Its retarded. I hate how these stupid as dog-shit asshole get to go to Uni on my fucking taxes (yes I pay taxes now *cries*) and then come out and get a job with JAIS. I wish they would all get cancer and fucking die....I really do. If I had mutant powers I would kill every last one of them first *see what I did there*
Also, the case of Revathi was thrown out of court because she was 'released' into the custody of her parents and forbidden from leaving the religion of peace because to do so would be 'treason' in the words of the syariah court judge. So a grown woman, married with her own daughter is now a prisoner of her parents (who are complete fuckheads by the way, just go see the Al-Jazeera clip on apostasy in malaysia on youtube) and can't raise her daughter as a hindu.
50 years of independence....its a shame 60% of the faggots here will never know true independence.
This just in PM says that allegations of torture and ill treatment at detention centres for 'rehabilitation' are completely untrue and are 'wild allegations' despite the fact that it is the detainees making these accusations. I'm starting to like the senile old fool more when he's asleep of being ellegantly silent.
FOR SALE
If anyone wants to buy my PS2 and stash of games or you know anyone that might want it just let me know. I'll just sell it online at lelong.com otherwise. RM300 flat out half price with all my games controls, memory card etc. (Do you guys think its too high, last I checked the new sets are RM600 for the slim ones that overheat easily) |
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why does religion have to go and make people so fucked up =(
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