Last nite, i watched a movie, which i bought at one of the famous pirated vcd den in kuching titled Pulse. I dunno y i bought that movie in da first place, i just bought it because it's a lelong price with 8 vcds for rm10. For this particular one, the quality is low, the rest are all ok. If any of u have watched the movie, then probably u know what i m talking about, for those who havent, i m all too lazy elaborate lar, not in the typing mood.
i think i m just like those people in da movie, lol somewhat lose my will to live one. Reason? i think life is just too boring for me. I lost will to play games, i lost will to go for diet, i lost will to go socializing, clubbing, yam cha, i lost will to watch movie, i lost will to chat. anything u can think of, also, sometime i lost the will to eat, i just eat because i have nothing better to do at that time. I will live on, but i dun have the will to move on and i hope it's only for the time being. Time stood still for me, everything was moving so rapidly and i was there standing moving nowhere. Everyday, i just hope i can lie on my bed, blast my ayumi songs and just sleep through it till the next day. I thnk this is what boredom can do to anyone. Even i find things to do to occupy my time, boredom seem to attached to me so firmly. Even now, i feel super bored. I dun quite enjoy the life like i used to, always anticipating and planning what to do during work and especially after work. It seems like hanging out at cafes, clubs, karaokes and other places has put me off, whihc i used to like sometime ago.
ah, luckily this blog exist hahah, i visit this blog everyday, and it feel like i m seeing Warlock everyday hahah, and the wonder of msn messenger, i get to chat with Kavi everynite? with her lanciao language (pardon the pun), it really put me to ease. haha, Thanks guys. muakzzzz.......it was just like yesterday that i was in ukm, boredom never existed in my dictionary.
oh, i m attening some motivational talk soon, i hope that will really help me out, by A LOT. i wan to move on, although i have a lot of dreams like going to japan, the will to move on is still low. though, all my dreams are reachable. |
At 3:13 PM,
you sound depressed :(
do some meditation la since it works for you..
youve gotta find ways to spice things up for yourself .. my lanciao jokes can only go so far..
and the excitement of watching warlock stroke would soon wear off.. hahaha..
yea its been fun chatting with you almost every other day..
take care.. cheer up :)
At 3:46 PM,
not really depression, just nothing to do.........even going out i wan go home early and when i reach home i got nothing to do. just everyday sleep then work and then sleep again.
but chatting online is nice, hahahhaa i dun feel bored that moment ^^
At 6:09 PM,
You're clearly suffering from depression. There is ALWAYS something to do. What's clearly missing is the will to act on your part.
I'm not sure why you're like this, it could be many things, we all have things that get us down after all.
Still get over it man. I've been where you are with the whole lazy to go out, bored, bored to play games, bored to watch shows, bored to hang out with friends (DotA is always the exception of course).
I'm sure if you actually get up and put a game in and start playing you don't actually think to yourself "OMG I'm so bored playing Rogue Galaxy!!!" If you do then find some new activities. If you don't and your boredom is always just because you don't do anything then its an obvious case of depression and the sooner you process this the sooner you can get over it and move on.
Of course depression is not some massive mental problem, many people suffer from depression at many times in their lives, its one of the hazards of modern life
At 6:25 PM,
Ya man, I agree with Magnus. It isn't that there isn't anything to do, you just lack the willpower to do it. Try getting back to your roots or go read poetry or go appreciate nature heck go listen to old songs .. anything that can make you realise that life is short and can be great if you only give it a chance. Good luck man. You used to be so happy and jolly , very shocked to see you depressed ..
maybe you just need a special someone to help give your life meaningful .. hmm, just a suggestion.