Just reading posts about everyones gaming history brings tears to my eyes. Such wonderful poetic bliss. *sniff*sniff* I was so moved that I just had to share mine. Here goes... T'was a dark and stormy night... Ahem!... ok, actually it was a beautiful christmas morning. I was still a clueless little kid. The morning breeze felt warm on my face.... ah hell, i'll just cut the chase and get to the point. My dad bought me a nintendo. The very first bulky one that could knock a grown man unconsious if it dropped on his feet. I had no idea what a nintendo was back then. Anyway, I played losts of games that I cant remember right now. Played with my dad and sis. Most memorable was Mario! Oh how a despise that game. Curse Mario and his stupid bottemless pits. If you cant tell yet, I suck at platform games. Loss count of how many times I treveled the bottomless pit. Grrrrrrr........... Then I began playing arcade games. At first mainly at a club which I took swimming lessons. Too name a few, Cadillac Dinosaurs, Moon walker, and ofcourse... Street Fighter. Anyway, then came the sega megadrive. Thats when my craze for games began to slowly manifest. Played losts of games with my sis. Mainly the barenuckle series. Finished it over a million times. Heh heh! As for X-men, thank goodness I figured out the reset trick in my first try. Otherwise it would have been so fustrating. Ok, actually magnus told me. He he. Still played lots of street fighter though. Note: I own magnus at street fighter. Countered all his moves. Hah! Although to be fair, he was the only one to provide a certain amount of competitive play. Thats when I first watched street fighter the movie. In japanese. Without subtitles. Ha ha. I was so clueless. Loved it though. Still dream about the Ryu,Ken,Vega/Bison ending fight scene. Sooooooo cooooollllll!!!! During this time, everyone had a pc already. I still don't. Sad! :c Apart from that, began going to arcades a lot. T'was the era of marvel superheroes. Must have spent hundreds on the game trying to..... damn magneto. Lets just say magnus adapted to that game faster than I did. Felt like ages before I finally mastered spiderman and stood a fighting chance. Another memmorable arcade game was D&D shadow of mystara. 4 player madness. Loved the mage. Chain cast spell, die, chain cast spell, die. Ha ha ha! And now, the era of the legendary PS. OMG! That was the bomb. FF7, FF8, Tekken, Soul calibur, Resident evil(opening a door never seemed so scary) ,toshinden(warlock was my fav prey),....etc. Countless games.... countless moments of a well spent life. Aaaahhhhh! During this time was when I got my first computer too. Before that the only computer game I played was warcraft 1 on the school computer. One of the perks of being in the computer club. Heh heh! Anyway, the first game on my computer was warcraft 2. Thats when I first encountered the legendary company.... Blizzard. Man do they create great games. Started multiplayer games then too. I suck though. Get killed all they time. Grrr..... Then came starcraft, greatest game of all time. Finished it in five days. Multiplay for years. Around here. Around this time. A historical moment in time. A divine entity of death incarnate. A manifestation of carnage itself.One that will spell doom for many in years to come. Behold! The ARC was born! The Arc of Aiur! As you can tell, I was a protoss fan back then. Nothing beats a swarm of carriers. Mwahahaha! Owned many games with them. Until one day, the zergs got smart. They rushed. Attacked a deffenceless base. The cruelty. Aaarrggghhhh! T'was then that the great potential of the protoss zealot was discovered. One zealot can takeout tones of zerglings. Heheh! Loss count of the number of victories in five minutes just because of one zealot. Protoss rules! Use to be one half of the protoss sphere of doom. The other was siriuz. Both pure bred protoss warriors. When ours forces combine.... victory was inevitable. After that, siriuz and I was banned from playing in the same team. Oh well. After killing endless amounts of zergs, the sanity of the Arc began to falter. Loyalty dissolved. Like a fallen angel.... I now serve.... the ZERG! Mwahahahaaha! Magnus was still loyal then. He loved his dear baby carriers. So did I. Heh heh! So... did... I... And so I sent my little scourges after them. One after another... after another. BOOOM! Aaahhh... pure bliss! Heh heh! Other memmorables were, Planescape Torment(best storyline in an RPG... ever), Dungeon keeper 2(finally, I get to play the dark side), Baldur's Gate and the like. Other than that, there was Diablo 1&2(corpse explotion rules), Total Annihilation, KKND.....etc. Then came the PS2. God of war, price of persia, devil may cry, metal gear solid, splinter cell, FFX, ..... just to name a few. Kinda like all those 4 player games aswell but i kinda have no one to play with. Oh how I envy warlock, siriuz & sai. Grrrr...... Anyway, gamers for life! Woo hoo!
This is bad. This is madness!! I have noticed this for quite sometime but i try to deny it. I guess denial is meaningless......it's getting worse.............
Well, my alter ego starts to manifest itself.................................when u put me behind the wheel. Yes, that is when i m driving. I totally transform into some kind of freak, whom even myself fear myself. I get very easily annoyed but aberrant road users and i sometime may curse. Now, i like to 'curi jalan' in most of the cases even though i know that the road up ahead may be narrow. To note also, i m a speed demon too. from casual 60 km/h, now my normal speed is 100 km/h and sometime more than that. btw, i m driving kancil, and driving kancil at 100 km/h is so not fun. i told myself before when i got my licence that the max speed i would drive will be 60 km/h. and that slowly increase to the speed i m driving now. I know everyone drives fast.
i can really feel the 'me' when i m behind the wheel. i get annoyed easily and i dun feel good when people overtake me. ah......wtf.......i dun like this feeling. it's eating up on me. and i can feel that it worsen everytime. this 2nd personality will gradualy fully manifest itself if i dun do something fast. i cant imagine the next time if i get my dream car.............
But one thing lar, i think i can handle my kancil pretty good. i m confident about it but at the same time,i think i m over confident. i dun drink and drive, by all means, the drink i mean is i get really drunk. ok, sometime i go out to drink just for fun, mayb a can or so, i guess that is pretty much alright. when i m ready to get drunk, i will tumpang someone so that that person can drive me home if i really got drunk real bad.
the funny thing is that, i can only drive kancil at the moment, hahahaha, i dun drive other cars.........i feel very connected to kancil...........one wonders..........
Ok, here is the thing that i cant decide. hahaha, last nite i chatted with our Kavi, and.....she somehow mentioned that she does not like to be tickled. ^^ so, the mischevious me decided to kacau kavi and said when i had the chance to meet her, i will tickle her.......for better understanding of the situation, please read the following (the following has been edited by me, simplified, but it holds the same meaning)
Kavi: I hate it when people tickle me, i m so lanciao fucking hate it. I dunno y people likes to tickle me. I transform from a feline to a tigress when people tickle me (i exxagerate a bit so that it sounds nicer ^^) Me: oooo, izzit? then the next time if i meet u, i m going to tickle u a bit. Kavi: ADOLE!!!!! Me: hehehe, i m so going to tickle u. i wan to c how fierce a tigress u can be. Kavi: no, i think u wont do that, for u are kind. Me: we'll c, we'll c, hehehehe Kavi: No, i think u dun have balls to tickle me. Me: what if i really tickle u? kavi: i m a pur-fect groin attacker, so accurate. u will get it from me if u did it. (exxagerate a bit also hahaha). . . .(blah blah blah) . Kavi: ok lar Adole, if u tickle me, u got no balls, deal?
So, now the decisions are as follow:
1. tickle kavi and get my groin kicked? 2. dun tickle kavi and get the title 'ballless' 3. accept her deal and just let the whole thing slip by.
What do u guys think. i havent accepted the deal yet. hahaha, but thinking on this matter, getting my groin kick is just a pain in a moment, but getting the title 'ballless' is a life time 'achievement'. So, how? Sorry kavi ^^ bleh
So I guess I might as well continue the gaming history write-ups.
I started gaming when I was 12 years old. My dad used to take us to this place called Wisma Punca Emas where we could pay RM3 to play Street Fighter 2 on the arcade machine for half an hour, or play Super Nintendo or Sega Genesis games. Back then Street Fighter 2 was all the rage and I became an excellent M.Bison/Vega user while all the other fags were play Ryu and Ken, always standing on one end of the stage hurling fireballs over and over again. No match for my psycho powers.
My cousins, brother and I used to spend copious amounts of time playing many arcade games when we went to Genting Highlands, Port Dickson and most other vacation spots, as well as at Sungai Ujong Club in Seremban.
Some of our favourites were;
Captain Commando Superman Cadillacs and Dinosaurs Image Flight (one of the best top-down shooters I've played) Golden Axe
we basically focused a lot on multi-player games since we played in a group.
About a year later my dad bought us our first console, the micro genius with all those Nintendo (NES) games. 8-bit was all the rage and we played titles like Super Mario. Super Mario 3 (The best fucking Mario every, believe it), Castlevania, That crappy Street Fighter fake produced locally, and of course Ninja Turtles. That was our favourite game for my brother and me because you actually fight Super Shredder at the end, coolness, we also managed to find an 8-bit version of image flight.
My and my brother wanted to get a 16-bit game (either the SNES or Megadrive) and my dad said he's get us one but kept postponing, so in a daring plan to blackmail him, we went out and used our saving to buy the first X-men game for the Sega Megadrive, and he caved in and bought us the console later. X-men drove us mad because you're trapped in the danger room and the game tells you to reset the computer at the second last level, it took us days to figure out that we literally had to reset our console to progress and fight Magneto.
We had some fantastic games on the old Megadrive; Golden Axe 1, 2, and 3; Bare Knuckle/Streets of Rage 1, 2, 3; Castlevania; StreetFighter 2 (yeah still that); Sonic the Hedgehog (liked Mario better); Ninja Turtles (always some good 2-player gaming there); Splatterhouse (still some of the grossest graphic imagery) and loads more. Back then the cartridges were so expensive that we had to rent most games from the store for the same cost of a DVD game today.
Around the same time we all got computers, back in the day when an okay PC had 4mB of RAM and an uber-PC had 8mB of RAM. My first PC game was a top-down shooter called Xenon 2. I just discovered that you can get a Windows version for free, just do a google search for 'Xenon 2' Pretty good stuff and still a fun game for the office with the sound disabled.
I moved on to really cool PC games like Doom 1 & 2. It was the only first person shooter that didn't make me want to hurl and pass out (I suffer from vertigo when playing first person shooters due to using more than 15% of my brain). I also played X-Wing one of my most loved space sims, because nothing beats flying an X-wing, all spacecraft get pwnd by X-wings. Gundams could beat X-Wings though.....
I also played an emulation of Street Fighter 2 which Igot from my now roomate Ram, who also gave me my first computer virus, setting up a lifelong battle between me and my older family members, as they blame everything on games now, the computer could get run over by a herd of stampeding elephants and they'd blame the game I installed yesterday for it.
Also, I played my first Role Playing Game (RPG) which was a hentai game supplied to all of us by Siriuz called Knights of Xentar/Dragon Knight. It was actually a really fun game with massive amounts of nude anime chicks.
I do wish I'd owned a SNES though, it had way better games than the Sega Megadrive. I compensate for that now by playing SNES games on my PC or mobile phone.
Later we started playing games like Diablo, Warcraft and Starcraft, all games made by Blizzard and loads of fun. With that the PC became a strategy games platform for me. God how I hated playing Starcraft against Arc in the cybercafe, my beautiful fleet of Carriers!! Destroyed by those puny exploding zerg drones. That single gaming event cemented my lifelong rivalry with Arc in our escalating videogame war.
We moved on to Street Fighter Alpha/Zero and Marvel Superheroes (My favourite fighting games because I could use Magneto, my idol). I became obscenely good at those Capcom VS games and the only one that could really provide competition was Arc. Later We also had X-men vs Streetfighter in the arcade where I always used Magneto with Juggernaut/Sabretooth/M.Bison etc. You get my drift.
Some of us in the old highschool days (me, Arc, Siriuz) played Dungeons & Dragons: Shadow over Mystara which was one of the few 4-player arcade games. We played that game to death, and its still fun, I have it on my PC now. We played the arcade game Aliens vs. Predator as well, I think that game was way more fun than anything I've seen in that series so far.
When I moved to KL to go to college my uncle had a way better computer and so me and my cousin started playing games like Quake (which gave me my first taste of vertigo), Total Annihilation, TA Kingdoms and the greatest strategy game ever made...DUNGEON KEEPER!!!!! God I loved that game, finally an outlet for my evil nature bwa ha ha!!!
During this time I bought myself a Playstation and played Final Fantasy VII which not only made me a Sephiroth fanboy, but it turned me on to japanese RPGs and I never looked back at the western RPGs after that. The playstation had so many games that I just can't even begin to list them, but basically my focus was the Resident Evil series, the Final Fantasy Series, and the since fucking best Castlevania, Castlevania Symphony of the Night, and my favourite RPG ever, Vagrant Story.
I also owned a Sega Saturn along with the RAM cartridge that allowed me to paly X-men VS Streefighter at home. Good times. I play Dragon Quest too like adole, as well as the Shining Force 3 series (only the 1st of the 3 volumes was translated to english, I got the 2nd and 3rd in japanese and printed out the script off the internet).
During my first year of Law school, I had a 3 month holiday after the exams and I went to work for American Express and made a massive sum of money (it was like 1.5k for 2 weeks of work) and went out and bought a Playstation 2, which I'm still playing 6 years later. Great Games. Final Fantasy X, God of War, Devil May Cry, Resident Evil, So many games, not enough time to type.
At the same time my aunt bought me a Sega Dreamcast as well, we played the Spawn arcade game a whole lot on that system, an excellent game with good graphis even by todays standards. Too bad the system just didn't have that many games.
After that my girlfriend bought me an Xbox while she was in the USA. She's my fiancee now and would be for this reason alone because you do not let a girl who buys you video games go. One of the best Xbox titles we played was Kingdom Under Fire and the X-men Legends series since we could play with 4 people as once. X-men Legend 2 was especially sweet because I could use Magneto in it. YAY!!! Kights of the Old Republic 1 and 2. Ad much more.
Basically aside from the next generation consoles out now, I've owned every console game out the besides the atari and the nintendo consoles (unless the fake NES a.k.a. Micro Genius counts). I am a mad console gamer. I'm not too into PC gaming simply because of all the crap I have to deal with when gaming on the PC, conflicts, hardware compatibility, viruses, hanging etc. etc.
After I graduated and started working I decided to buy myself a real PC. you see one of the things I never had was a good PC, my family always bought shitty ones. So I suck in the cash and built one up and now I play DotA on it along with some other games like Dungeon Keeper 2, Disciples 2 and some other stuff, but mostly I just use it to watch porn. Well my PC is like the media centre in my home, everything from music to video gets run off that thing.
Now I'm playing: Digital Devil Saga 2 and God of War 2 (once I get my save file from Seremban anyway) Once I'm done with a few more games, I'll probably sell off my PS2, which should be in a few months, we already have a slim one in Seremban that works better. In June I'll be playing Resident Evil Remake and Zero on the Gamecube because my brother bought one in Ireland and will bring it back here then.
Once I'm settled in the USA and we can afford an HDTV I'll probably buy a PS3. Until then, it will probably be PC gaming for me there.
Growing up I faced a lot of prejudice from my family about gaming. I wasn't a complete screw up with school and managed to do a pretty good job with little to no effort on my part while my cousins were playing truant, smoking and sneaking out at night. My dad (the very same person who took us to play those games so long ago) was especially annoying, particularly when he'd ask me why I couldn't be more like my cousins. Fuck yeah. I keep reminding him about that today, now that I'm a corporate attorney and the rest of them still haven't graduated from college.
Still even to this day the old folks dis gaming as some kind of childish activity when it isn't. Gaming is no different from TV, in fact its better because you're actually doing something instead of passively watching.
Its a good thing I make my own money and don't have to give a fuck what they say anymore. I'm with Adole on this on, you take away my games and I take away your fucking life.
I will be a gamer for life and I hope that if I have kids that I'll be able to game with them too, unless they don't like gaming, then they should do whatever they want. BUT NO CHILD OF MINE WILL PLAY O2JAM!!! They can be homos, but just not that game.
Now I'm psyched. Must go home to game!!!! Fuck my Nokia PC Suite won't connect since I got the latest version yesterady. Fuck Nokia.
It had been one week plus since I last visit the blog. So many post I haven't read. So I finally catch up and read all the post and of course the comment (Hopefully). Now where should I begin?
I've been doing a lot of reading for past two weeks after I get my full collection of ebooks of Star Trek Voyager. Well Warlock could have finish it in one week. But for me, everyone should know my english standard. I end up finish 5 books in 9 days and that's consider my best speed in reading english book. Star Trek Voyager is still by far the most interesting English Series I ever watch. It also make me start watching some other english series like Stargate and a few others. But Voyager is still my favorate.
Adole had told us about his gaming history. I wonder when I start gaming. Well I think it should all start out when my father decide to become a technician for the arcade center. From that point on, I start playing arcade game, for free of course. After that my father start invent some money into the arcade machines, I start playing some arcade game in my house cause the arcade machine is there for me to play. If u guys come to my house. you will see one of the arcade machine is still there. After my cousin bought a console and that's nitendo for me. I play some video game on the tv. Still remember playing super mario and some other games. After that my friend get a Sega and I get a Super Nintendo. We start exchange the console now and then to play the different type of game. Still remember "Lufia". The first English Japanese style RPG I play. I play and replay it a few times. There is where I start learning some basic English. Yeah I know I should properly learn English from the school but it just......it doesn't go very well. Finally when I was form 4, I get my first computer and I start play computer games. Some of the games are really memberable like rich 3 and forbidden divine. For English games like icewind dale is the first real RPG I play. And of course there is Starcraft, the best real time strategy game I played, warcraft is nice, but it doesn't give me the feel Starcraft give me. For FPS there will be doom, counter strike. Fun game like Dota is nice as well.
I guess Adole and me are the same type, can't go one without games. Kill me if you want to, but don't try to stop me from playing game.Or else.....
This is hilarious...even an Englishman could not construct sentences using numeric! Exclusively only to great Malaysian and Singaporean Chinese....
Ah Lek was asked to make a sentence using 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9 and 10. Not only did he do it 1 to 10, he did it again back to 1.
This was what he came up with...
1 day I go 2 climb up a 3 outside a house to peep. But the couple saw me, so I panic and 4 down. The man rush out and wanted to 5 with me. I run so fast until I fall 6 and throw up. So I go into 7 eleven and grab some 8 to throw at him. Then I took a 9 and try to stab him. 10 God he run away. So, I put the 9 back and pay for the 8 and left 7 eleven. Next day, I call my boss and say I am 6 . He said 5, tomorrow also no need to come back 4 work. He also asks me to climb a 3 and jump down. I don't understand, I so nice 2 him but I don't know what he 1 .
************************************************************************************* Subject: Don lie to ur mummy
>Mom comes to visit her son Kumar for >dinner...who lives with a girl roommate >Sunita. > >During the course of the meal, his >mother couldn't help but notice how >pretty Kumar's, roommate >was. She had long been suspicious of a >relationship between the two, and this >had only made her more curious. > >Over the course of the evening, while >watching the two interact,she started >to >wonder if there was more between Kumar >and his roommate than met the eye. > >Reading his mom's thoughts, Kumar >volunteered, "I know what you must be >thinking, but I assure you, Sunita >and I are just roommates." > >About a week later, Sunita came to >Kumar >saying, "Ever since your mother came to >dinner, I've been unable to find the >silver chutney jar. > >You don't suppose she took it, do you? >"Well, I doubt it, but I'll email her, >just to be sure." > >So he sat down and wrote : >Dear Mother, I'm not saying that you >'did' take the chutney jar from my >house, I'm not saying that >you 'did not' take the chutney jar. But >the fact remains that it has been >missing ever since you were >here for dinner. > >Love, Kumar > >Several days later, Kumar received an >email from his Mother which read : >Dear Son, >I'm not saying that you 'do' sleep with >Sunita, and I'm not saying that you 'do >not' sleep with Sunita. >But the fact remains that if she was >sleeping in her OWN bed, she would have >found the chutney jar by now. >Love, >Mom. > >Lesson of the day ..... > >Don't Lie to Your Mother......... >especially if she is Indian!
Interviewer: what is your birth date? Muthu: 13th October Which year? Muthu: …..EVERY YEAR
Manager asked to Muthu at an interview Can you spell a word that has more than 100 letters in it? Muthu replyed: -P-O-S-T-B-O-X.
After returning back from a foreign trip, Muthu asked his wife, Do I look like a foreigner? Wife: No! Why? Muthu: In London a lady asked me Are you a foreigner?
One tourist from U.S.A. asked to Muthu: Any great man born in this village??? Muthu: no sir, only small Babies!!!
Lecturer: write a note on Gandhi Jayanthi So Muthu writes, "Gandi was a great man, but I don't know who is Jayanthi.
Muthu was doing experiment with cockroach, first he cut it's one leg and told WALK. WALK. Cockroach walked. Then he cut it's second leg and told the same. Cockroach walked. Then cut the third leg and did the same. At last he cut it's fourth leg and ordered it walk! But cockroach didn't walk. Suddenly Muthu said loudly, "I found it. If we cut cockroach's four legs, it becomes deaf.
On a political rally Muthu was arrested. Why??? A woman journalist walking with a badge wrote "PRESS" and He did it..
When Muthu was traveling with his wife in an auto, the driver adjusted mirror. Muthu shouted, "You are trying to see my wife? Sit back. I will drive.
Muthu went in a hotel. To wash hands he went to the washbasin. There he started washing the basin. Seeing this, the manager asked what was he doing. Muthu pointed towards the board " WASH BASIN "
Interviewer: just imagine your in 3 rd floor, it caught fire and how will you escape? Muthu: its simple. I will stop my imagination!!!
************************************************************************************* > > > ROMANCE MATHEMATICS > > >Smart man + smart woman = romance > >Smart man + dumb woman = affair > >Dumb man + smart woman = marriage > >Dumb man + dumb woman = pregnancy > > >******** > > >OFFICE ARITHMETIC > > >Smart boss + smart employee = profit > >Smart boss + dumb employee = production > >Dumb boss + smart employee = promotion > >Dumb boss + dumb employee = overtime > > >******** > >SHOPPING MATH > > >A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he needs. > >A woman will pay $1 for a $2 item that she doesn't need. > > >******** > >GENERAL EQUATIONS & STATISTICS > > >A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband. > >A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife. > >A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend. > >A successful woman is one who can find such a man. > > >******** > >HAPPINESS > > >To be happy with a man, you must understand him a lot and love him a >little. > >To be happy with a woman, you must love her a lot and not try to understand >her at all. > > >******** > >LONGEVITY > > >Married men live longer than single men do, but married men are a lot more >willing to die. > > >******** > >PROPENSITY TO CHANGE > > >A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't. > >A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change, and she does. > > >******** > >DISCUSSION T! ECHNIQUE > > >A woman has the last word in any argument. > >Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument. > *************************************************************************************
The word 'Game' is music to my ear. Whenever i heard the word game, all i can think of is video games. I m lucky to be borned in the era when console gaming just started to bloom. I still remember when i was 5-6 years naive lil boy, i started toying with the Atari, playing Alien Invasion. The console was bought by my father for the family and i constantly see my dad and my mum then trying to defend their 'shield' in the game. I like the part where they hit the bonus alien ship, the sound is so cute. Back then, the gamepad is so simple, only a stick and a button. Pac Man was my favorite too.
Then, it somes to Microgenius. I played Microgenius until i was in form 3. At that time, Microgenius is the best console ever created, better than Atari in term of the colour and movement. now we get the 4 direction pad and 2 buttons, with 2 turbo buttons. I still remember the first game that we played was Street Figther, this is when i fell for Chun Li. Come on, she was the only tough lady fighter at that time. And then there are the famous Rockman aka Megaman in the States which is one of the best action game. I also had started playing RPG. Dragon Ball series for instant was a hit back then, but sadly, all the games are in japanese, but i still manage to finish some of the games, with some help from my fren who is chinese educated. The Dragon Ball game used the card system with each card written a chinese character and each hero had specific card to enable them to ultilize the card and do kamekameha. The system changed slightly after that, using few cards. That is when i started to use my logic and senses to play jap game, cause i know nothing about mandarin characters and worse of all, japanese.
After that, came Sega Megadrive/Genesis. I owned one when i was in Form 3, yeah that was pretty late. At that time, my family was not financially well off, so me and my bro had to save our ang pau money just to get one. We really treasure it cause we also save our pocket money (at that time RM1 for me) daily. My favorite games were Alisia Dragon, and action + adventure, without doubt Shining Force 1 & 2, Phantasy Star 4, Guns Heroes, Thunder Force series (shooting game), Ecco the Dolphin, Donald Duck Adventure, Mortal Kombat, Bare Knuckle and others. At that time, i can still abstain from playing the games during exam times. I still remember playing Mortal Kombat after all i finished all my exams, that was brutal.
Then it came to Super Famicom era, the 8 bit era. I dun have the console, i was too poor to own one, but my uncle had one. ^^We were staying under one roof back then and i wathced him playing most of the time, especially the RPGs like FF6 (FF3 in States), Mana series, Chrono Trigger (muakssss), Tales of Phantasia, some puzzle games, and some that i cant really remember. I also went to this game shop with my frens after school or go early before school to play games, some time we have to call the shop and book for a room. It was fun. Most noticeable, we played Dragon Ball, Yuyu Hakusho and some time even Power Rangers. I truely enjoy that moment of my life.
Then, it comes to the 16 bet era. Playstation and Sega Saturn. I got my PS after selling my Sega Genesis 2 my fren for a mere RM150 with 8 catridges of games, because i m so wan to buy PS. But after some re calculation, i noticed that the money me and my bro had been saving was not enuf to get one, i nearly gave up at that point and consulted with my bro just to get some Sega games, luckily, my bro was so adamant on owning PS that pushed me to save up more money. Alas, we loaned some $$ from mum (actually minta sedekah, bleh). I m very thankful to my bro and from that day onwards, i will try my best to achieve what i wan to achieve and wont give in so easily. PS, the first game we played was, not the one u r thinking but it's Ray Crisis, because that is the game that had 2 player modes. Next was FF7, yea, the masterpiece of all time. At that time, i was playing the Jap version, without walkthrough, i have to rely on my fren and my uncle on certain aspect as they read magazine (sadly mandrin). At that time, we pretty much had to remember the katakana especilaly the spells. That was not so hard. Internet was not introduced to me yet until Form 6 so searching for walkthrough is not an option, and i think the gamefaqs may not be there yet. I bought PS when i was in Form 5. I cant stop playing PS at that time even during SPM and STPM. hahaha, luckily my parents did not locked away our PS. An annoying to note that was that our first memory card, dunno for some unknown reason at that time, and now i think it's some compatiblity issue, our save files got corrupted easily. So, when we play FF7, we saved a lot of files, trying saving more, so that when one got corrupted, the 2nd newer one will work. We persevere till the end and save enuf money to get a 2nd memory card, which fortunately was working well. On Sega Saturn, my uncle owned one, so we just played some game occassionally like Shining Force 3 and Dragon Force (very cool at that time!)
After that is the 64 bit era, the Nintendo 64. The same thing, i dun have one, but my uncle owned one, hahaha, the very same uncle. So, we just played around occassionally also. Games like Mario World, StarFox and Mario Kart was a hit at that time. Zelda was not in his game list though. Not so many games for this consoles. But i love Ogre Battle 64.
Next, it's the PS2, Xbox and Dreamcast era. The same thing again, my uncle owned Dreamcast. My uncle owned Dreamcast also, but for some reason, he sold it off. At that time, we were not staying with him so i cant describe my experience. As for my PS2, read MY, hhaaha, this time, i started working after came home from Uni, i saved up 2months of my salary which was about RM550 at that time (i brought bread and apple for lunch) and it's worth the wait. Finally, i owned my PS2. Yahoo!!! still remember right before the 1st of June, that was on Friday, our pay day, i was so nervous, and i m dying to get PS2 that weekend because 1st and 2nd June are holiday in Sarawak, the Gawai celebration. I had 4 days off!!! But sadly the PS2 that i bought at that shop got, erm.......it's faulty. I brought it back to the shop and the tauke is good enuf to refund the money back to me as i cant wait any longer, he did not have any stock at that time. So i went to another shop to get one. That happened in 2003. I got my PS2 in May-June 2003 (1st and 2nd buy). I got my PS in 18th February 1997. My baby......how can i forget........
And now, i m eagerly waiting for next year, hopefully next year i can get my PS3. ^^ counting back from when i started, it's has been more than 20 years of gaming for me. hahaha. It's that long that i thought it was just like yesterday. Gaming is not my hobby anymore, it's a part of my life. I dunno how i can live without gaming. Take away my game and u will taste hell from me. Deprive me from my console and u will get ur hands smashed by me. Experienced? i dunno, games have evolved from hard maze coiled dungeons to so linear game dungeons. Judge? And one interesting thing is i see the evolution of the games graphic from whence it started till now, or not long from whence it started. It's cool and i wan to c what will happen to the games in like, let's say.........10 years time? i shall wait and keep my eyes peel.
Hmmm, wanted to post something interesting but somehow got sidetracked into surfing the internet. Guess I won't be posting anything now .. probably later at night :P ... well here are some funny stuff I found at ubersite. Do go browsing there , it's lotsa fun (of course, it isn't Encyclopeadia Dramatica but it comes close). All are work safe unless mentioned otherwise
This is madness!!!! I got so annoyed today on the road. I hate queue jumper. Ok, this morning i was on my way to my lab. Every morning, i have to pass the traffic junction, which is always ok, no jam except after office hour (lucky for me, i dun have to use that way to go back home, but still the same junction, just different road lanes). This morning, of all the sudden, dunno what happen, the junction seems to be quite occupied. I was happily driving, singing along to the songs i blasted in my car. I was far behind the line. Green light and we are moving, slow as usualy. Then came one car, a van, giving me the hand signal to let him move into my lane, so, i just let him have his way. Before long, the light turned red. it's ok, i can wait since i came out early. i have to wait for 5 mins. Then it's green light again, few cars came from behind and drove pass me, car signalling and hand signalling as well to the driver just few cars in front of me. So meaning that the few cars and mine have to wait for them to get into the lanes and move. Not long, IT'S RED again. Bloody!!! This is blasphemy!!!! i got so annoyed and i smsed to my collegue and was cussing like hell! i have to wait for 5 more mins. The question is that, y all these people dunno how to queue properly. Have to cut queue one mer? people can queue and wait, u people dunno how to queue and wait mer? wait if one day i cut queue like that also in front of u when u are almost late, u wan mer? u wan be fast, i also wan fast ler.....walau eh.
I cant care much lar, even if u r driving golden citizens in ur car. golden citizens nowadays are also very crafty. Last i heard is that they complot with other house buglar and act to survey the house, by asking for drinks, direction, etc and they take the chance to get a quick glimpse on your house and located if any alarm was installed. It's not that i dun respect the elders, i always do. Just we have to be very careful nowadays, people come in different form. The one that everyone need to really avoid is at the airport. Just reject anyone (of coz, unless u know that certain someone well enuf) who asked to "tumpang" some baggages since there is a allowable limit of weight for everyone in da cargo, unless u r willing to pay extras, per kg. Me and my fren were approaced once by this kind of stranger, a lady in 50's and a grandma. we just rejected nicely even though we all hand carried our luggages. What if they carry something illegal especially drugs in there? the luggages will be registered under ur name and u will get into hellpit deep trouble.
Ah, i think i just let what happen to me this morning slip by lar.......for i m kind.............
I DON’T understand why some people have to condemn straight-As students. The As are obtained through their ability and hard work and should serve as the stepping stone for them to achieve their dreams.
There’s a myth that students who are more active in the co-curricular front possess more leadership qualities than the rest. It is certainly not true, as the posts they hold are mainly because they are popular.
The rat race to get the posts is almost like a popularity contest, as it is mostly based on the number of votes they get from students. The public universities’ selection of students should be based only on their examination results. We do not want doctors who were active participants in co-curricular activities yet have Bs and Cs on their examination slips.
True, the workforce needs quality and well-rounded graduates but I would like to re-state that the number of posts a student holds do not determine their character as a whole. If the Government wants to nurture a well-rounded workforce, start by overhauling the education system and offer a holistic education.
It is not right for the students with more posts to have an advantage over the students with none. Please take their hard work into consideration.
Lastly, I would like to proudly proclaim that my younger sister scored 13 As in her SPM.
She didn't hold any post in school, but her peers continue to describe her as being sociable, outgoing and an intelligent person, who should serve as a role model for all students.
YVONNE,
Its people like this that set back our education system 30 years from what we want to achieve, albeit the fact that we are already way behind in a global spectrum.
I do not deny that straight-A's is an accomplishment, but the problem with our country and people like 'YVONNE' is that they are the ones responsible for making young people think that if you get anything less than straight A1s, you're an absolute failure and are condemned to a bleak future.
There’s a myth that students who are more active in the co-curricular front possess more leadership qualities than the rest. It is certainly not true, as the posts they hold are mainly because they are popular.
The rat race to get the posts is almost like a popularity contest, as it is mostly based on the number of votes they get from students.
This is a very uneducated and ignorant assumption to make. True, some positions are based on popularity. A lot are based on dedication, continuity and merit. Even if you do get your position because because you're popular, it means you have good networking skills, are sociable and well known. What's wrong with that? Alright fine, lets live in Miss 'YVONNE''s little world and assume that all students that hold positions in school committee's are evil popular brats that convert other insecure brats into their popular minions of doom hellbent on undermining less social students and taking over the world. Even if you have been selected by your peers, do you think administration will allow you to keep your position if you slack off or don't do a good job?
In my world, the real world, the common phrase people use to deal with this situation is "You're out, BITCH!".
So you have the leadership skills of Nelson Mandela, Gandhi and Hitler combined, but do not lead in anything. Ever heard of "A leader is nothing without his followers"? Where's the friggin' Nazi's, stupid?
The public universities’ selection of students should be based only on their examination results. We do not want doctors who were active participants in co-curricular activities yet have Bs and Cs on their examination slips.
I'm sorry, I don't want a doctor with no social skills, no analytical thought, not future-oriented and an overall patient-doctor relations disaster either.
This person 'YVONNE' is an absolute Neanderthal. "We do not want doctors who were active participants in co-curricular activities yet have Bs and Cs on their examination slips."? What the fuck? This is another uneducated, ignorant statement. When you go to university or specialize sweetheart, the name of the game changes. When you're in university/college, the name of that game is "GETTING-A-MINIMUM-CREDITS/SCORE-CERTIFIED-BY-A-GROUP-OF -PEOPLE-NORMALLY-A-HELL-OF-A-SMARTER-THAN-YOU-IN-ORDER-TO- GET-YOUR-QUALIFICATION-DEPENDING-ON-WHAT-YOU'RE-DOING- AND-WHERE-YOU-ARE".
What do you think? An instructor saying "Oh its ok, that you nicked the colon and would have caused severe internal bleeding if you were not operating on a dead body for your test, you still pass, I mean come on, YOU'RE THE STAR OF THE FOOTBALL TEAM!!"
Oh and 'YVONNE' before you decide on the measure of a man, ask some people you personally respect and admire now what their SPM results were. Do you think any less of them?
True, the workforce needs quality and well-rounded graduates but I would like to re-state that the number of posts a student holds do not determine their character as a whole. If the Government wants to nurture a well-rounded workforce, start by overhauling the education system and offer a holistic education.
The number of posts a student holds does not determine them as a whole? Well neither does a bunch of A's that cease to matter 5 years later. Sure, let's create a more holistic system for our youth. And if we do, so what? I think 'YVONNE' here thinks once we do that, we can abolish extra curricular activities. I mean why not? You can learn algebra while swimming, playing chess and debating can't you? Go fuck yourself first 'YVONNE'.
It is not right for the students with more posts to have an advantage over the students with none. Please take their hard work into consideration.
Your hard work is taken into consideration. But your laziness and lack of initiative to venture into things beyond textbooks is taken into account too.
Lastly, I would like to proudly proclaim that my younger sister scored 13 As in her SPM.
She didn't hold any post in school, but her peers continue to describe her as being sociable, outgoing and an intelligent person, who should serve as a role model for all students.
Well congratulations to your sister 'YVONNE'. But if your sister was "sociable, outgoing, intelligent and a ROLE MODEL" I don't see why it would have been so hard for her to sign up for a few clubs and garner a few votes. All I see is : UNMOTIVATED, LAZY, NOT FORWARD THINKING, CLOSE MINDED, UNINTELLECTUAL. And those are just a few.
Here's the bottom line.
Non-academic activities gives us balance. You do not have to be the stereotypical over achiever and be part of absolutely everything. It's good to have some additional credentials so people can tell what you're like, your interests and passions. Just for the record, I got 7 A's and 4 B's. It was really important for me to get all A's, mostly because of the kind of expectations there were for me (because my brother did and is doing so crapfuckingtastically well). But when I didn't get it, it wasn't the end of the world. I was sad for like, 45 minutes. And then I was over it and thinking about the next step, which surprised even me.
Extra curriculars are often a chance at redeeming oneself when your grades aren't perfect. I always maintained my grades when I was in form 5, A's, some B's and one or two C's. Yet I still got picked out many times as one of the top students of the school. I'm pointing out myself as an example because I was really active in activities, and yes, a lot of people did know me. In my opinion, a student active in activities with 9A's( not all A1's) and a B is any time better than a student with all 10 A1's and nothing else.
I am in no way saying don't work for all A's, I still know that if I had put in a bit more effort, I could have done it (seeing that all my B's were Science subjects) but I'm not dwelling on it. Always strive to do the best because it can open many doors, but only if you set your priorities right.
I recall my father saying "What's the big deal they make with these all A's students, I mean, what matter's is WHAT THEY DO AND HOW THEY PERFORM AFTER THIS IS GRADUATE AND POSTGRADUATE STUDIES". Amen to that. Sure, its still an achievement, but if you plan to ride on that forvever, you are deluded. And keep in mind, the first time he said this was when my brother got all A's in his SPM, and the papers were hyping up the top scorers to seem like gods.
Although, I don't know what kind of world 'YVONNE' lives in, but I seriously wonder what her sister plans to do next. Here are the possibilities.
Governmental/National Scholarships : JPA/Petronas/Bank Negara/ the usual etc...
The 13 A's will definitely get noticed. But there is more than just a handful that have better grades than that. Guess what? Even our own fucked up system still places value on co-curricular activities. Unfortunately, YOU HAVE NONE.
A Levels/SAM/STPM Foundation courses in Local Institutions
If you manage to get a full scholarship to do your foundation from one of the colleges, power to the people. But I seriously doubt that you would, because I think even for that you need to submit your co-curricular record.
Let's say you enter college to do foundation on your own expenses, what's the admission requirements? Oh, 3 Credits and a pass in BM? Maybe an A1 in Modern Maths? WELL THANK GOD YOU SLAVED AWAY AND AVOIDED SOCIAL CONTACT FOR AN IMPORTANT FRACTION OF YOUR LIFE JUST FOR THAT!
And once you take your A-Levels, no one gives a flying rats ass about your SPM results. And guess what 'YVONNE'? Your sister will be sitting in her biology lecture next to a student that got 4 A's in SPM. Not far away there'll be a student who did worse and maybe failed a couple of subjects.
Your SPM results is SHOT TO HELL.
SAT's/Direct applications to top university's:
Lets say you take your SAT's and then want to apply straight to top schools overseas (If you don't plan to go to good schools but will settle for anything as long as its overseas, you're a more useless piece of shit than you think you are).
You'll apply with your SAT scores (lets assume, for the sake of this projection, you somehow get a perfect full score) and SPM results. Oh wait a minute, whats all that extra pages in your application for that clearly state 'Extra curricular activites'? Well, we'll just have to burn that because YOU HAVE NONE, won't we?
I mean, I'll just get a peer review, some teacher's reviews and write a fantastic application essay/personal statement, and hey, the admissions officers don't need any proof and point of reference showcasing my passion, intellectual ability, motivation, innovation, creativity and uniqueness, do they?
Some of the hardest places to get into in the world are the American Liberal Art's Colleges (top schools that offer undergraduate studies).
So 'YVONNE' lets say your sister applies to Swarthmore. She can get in right? I mean, 13 fucking A's dude! Answer : NEVER.
And 'YVONNE' how about Amherst? Surely she can make it there? Answer : IMPOSSIBLE.
Oh but 'YVONNE', surely she can get into William's, the number one Liberal Arts College with an admission rate lower than that of most Ivy League schools?
OMFC!!!!!! i watched 300 for the 2nd time last nite, 2 nites consecutively. it's a great show. i like their strategies and most of all, the SLOW MO. wooohoooo. The one that i like the most is the king, Leonidas soloing the coming wave, using sheild, spear and sword. I so like the way they swing their shield and how they turn, i mean how they twist and turn to sheild attacks. it's nice!!! This is the first time i have seen so many arrows attack also, a lot compared to Hero (Jet Li and Maggie Cheung one). and this is the 2nd time i watched a movie consecutively, the first has to be Advent Children. I watched it 3 nites in a row, no skipping, full. i was wowing all the way in da movie, and some part i was being so silent, admiring the moves, especially the first time i saw the solo comboing (refer up there). it so remind me of Sophitia of Soul Calibur.
Nice, nice. i wan to buy the unrated dvd.
On my excursion to Sibu, lol, this is most facinating. Me and my fren, we had dinner in one of the eateries, we had vege, lemon chicken, japanese tauhu and mix vege soup with 2 plate of rice (a lot), guess the price? i was so shocked at the price and asked twice. we had all those for cheap RM12!!!! where can u find any other places as cheap as this liao. As for ikan bakar, the one that we usually have in kuching will be RM10-12. As for Sibu, with same portion, good sambal and less bone, i had my ikan bakar for RM5!!! almost half of the price. Sibu is a food haven, i so scared of sibu and i dun dare to work long in sibu. PHOBIA!!!!!!!!!! Because there is practically nothing much to do in sibu, even shopping complexes are also not so grand, except for one, so eating is the only thing people can do. Come to sibu? to those still on diet, a day or 2 visit is ok, but for those who wants to pile up the pounds, stay here as long as u can! Thank goodness i only stay there for one nite and i had 2 dinner already. darn.......
So, I rediscovered the joys of sleeping in and called in sick. Not like I could get any bloody work done since our pussy server has AIDS. Though I might as well make a post since its been awhile. Although now I'm back in this hellhole again and the fucking computers still don't fucking work!!! See its bad enough I have a soul crushing job of meaningless tedium, now I can't even surf the internet to pass the time and I can't do any work. Oh the days are getting longer and I just want the end of the month to arrive so I can finally tender my resignation.
The irony of it all is that I am at work and sick, threw up a substantial portion of my breakfast today morning. That was not fun!
Introduction
Yeah right, did anyone really think I'd get into this. Go read my profile, or don't, but you know you want to. I've been thinking about writing a bit about my life and relationship and future plans etc. but not in this post, maybe later. Add me to your msn/yahoo messengers.
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300
Well it finally came out. I must say i haven't been this excited about a movie in a long time. I'd heard about 300 awhile back and never bothered thinking it was probably some independent film production that the fags would go and watch and then pat themselves on the back over how non-conformist they were. Then I saw the trailer before 'Ghost Rider' and it blew me away.
I was a bit worried that the movie would suck, after all, the best trailers are usually for the shittiest movies. Trusted my movie sense and went to see 300 and it was absolutely mind-blowing. It is easily one of the best movies I've ever seen. Of course it doesn't beat 'Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King', when Theoden and the riders of Rohan charge on the plains of Pellenor, it was the most beautiful thing in movie history, I wanted to scream and run along too, people in the cinema were sobbing. I cried in the cinema too, I NEVER cry in the cinema. Yes Kavi!! I cried, not the sobbing bawling drama that I'm sure you like getting into, just some mild tearing. It was a very moving show. Basically the two most incredible scenes in tv/movie history for me are the charge of the Rohirrim on the plains of Pellenor and the final battel between Optimus Prime and Megatron. I'd add in the latter, but I can't access youtube from the office.
Since I'm not at work I can make this post more interesting, and I am moved to put in the clip from LotR:RotK for you to behold should you choose to.
Back to 300, it rocked, everyone should go watch it. The action scenes were nothing short of gorgeous. Gerard Butler IS King Leonidas. The Spartans kick ass like you wouldn't believe. No clips though, must see in the cinema, I'm pissed they're not screening it in IMAX here.
On a side note: Salty Peanuts III, you can meet up with me in the evenings during the week or on Friday evening and we can watch in Midvalley and then take the train to Seremban. Saturday night is fine for me too, but I don't know if Warlock can make it. DotA is most likely Saturday morning. To add on, it looks like we're all up for one wild Friday night in Seremban since everyone is now going to see 300. Warlock, just tell me where to meet up, either Kemayan Square or Terminal 1.
Oh I managed to get into youtube, so here is the Transformers scene I was talking about
"One shall stand. One shall fall." Oh hell yeah!!! I'm going to say that every time I negotiate the with the banks from now on. Every boy who wasn't a goth or a fag remembers this as the ultimate Transformers moment, and who didn't get just a little bit teary eyed when Optimus kicked the bucket. If the movie coming out in summer 2007 can duplicate the qualities of this scene I think most of us will be satisfied. Sadly, I keep thinking that the upcoming Transformers movie will be a complete fuck up. Only time and an RM11 ticket will tell...
Argh!!! I haven't seen this scene in ages. Lost my Transformers the Movie VCD. Anyone got? Please burn for me, there's a lunch/breakfast/DotA session in it for you. Ah so satisfying, Optimus Prime runs them down!!!! Don't fuck with Prime YEAH!!!! Booyah!!! Hotrod is a fag though, Rodimus was slightly cool for the last 5 mins of the movie then sucked ass the rest of the series.
P.S. the drums and guitar riffs are quite good in this song. Try uploading it into your mp3 player and see if the pitch is good ;P I don't like singing, but I could so get into drumming or electric guitar, too bad I don't have the time in between work and my other activities.
By the way, was "Pan's Labyrinth" any good? I mean would I like it or is it more of a boring, finding yourself kind of drama? Watching 300 basically killed of all chances of me going to see any other film in the cinema for this month.
Racism in 300 but mostly racism
It was very interesting to read about the accusations of racism hurled at 300. I mean of course all the fuckheads would start the whole oh 300 parallels the war in Iraq bullshit. I mean the damn comic was released in 1998!!!!
But the racism. I mean they're complaining that dark skinned people were cast as persians and cut down by the white spartans. So black people can never be cast as villains now. Sheesh!!! And the Spartans, I mean the Spartans were white!!! What do they want? Busta Rhymes as Leonidas?!?!?! Fucking idiots!! I have a few things to say about racism but I'll update later since I have a lunch appointment. Check back here later.
Okay so what is the deal with this racism bullshit!?!? Obviously since the story calls for Spartan warriors they have to be white right. I've been doing some thinking about racism.
Is a racist belief a belief where you hold that a person has certain qualities based on their race? Does it matter if those qualities are negative or positive. I believe its equally racist to say Chinese people are very studious as it is to say Indian people are mostly gangsters. Or saying Malays are lazy and Chinese people are 'hardworking'.
We all have our own prejudices of course. The world needs prejudice to function. But of course I think people should be open to re-evaluating their views whenever new evidence comes to light.
The black vs. white thing gets carried too far in the U.S.A. though, if they don't hire blacks to act in movies its racist, if they hire blacks but they're cast as villains its racist. Basically the only way forward is to only hire black people to play heroes in all movies. You don't hear these bitches bawling, "OMG!!! They cast a white man as the villain, they're saying white people are evil!! RACISM!!!"
Racism should be combatted in real life, but I can't stand it when people go looking for racism in everything. It annoys me.
Incidentally, I hate being I identified as indian. I will be honest and say for the most part I do not like indian people. They're always bugging me about shit. Anyway people tell me I'm indian, but can never answer why I am indian. I ask them, why do you call me indian? I'm not from india, I don't hold citizenship there, they won't let me in without proper documentation. I don't practice and indian culture (the assumption is hinduist religious and cultural practices, but India has an equally large muslim and bhuddist population). I like curry, but so do loads of other people.
So why the fuck are you telling me I'm indian. The truth is it boils down to my black skin doesn't it? I mean these people look and me and call me indian with no real basis. I'm not an indian citizen, I don't practice any of the major indian religions (in any case I'm be a hindu etc.). Its the truth isn't it, black skin, he's indian, and I have this whole load of crap foisted upon me. That's racism.
Suddenly I'm supposed to know Tamil? Why? Because its my mother tongue. Bullshit! My mother spoke english. India ain't my mother country, I can't even go there to live or work without being treated as a foreigner. I'm supposed to go out with indian girls. Why? Is it because blackies should only go out with other blackies(note: I don't subscribe to the concept of indian girls).
I am not indian! I mean what I say. I'm not trying to distance myself from indians because I look down on the people that categorise themselves as indian (although its hard not to when I see a load of them squatting outside the hospital for parang slash treatment EVERY FUCKING TIME I go to Seremban GH). But back to the topic, I don't try to distance myself, but I couldn't possible be more distant. Everyone should be free to live how they want to. But someone coming up to me and telling my I'm indian and that he/she expects me to behave in a certain way is racism and it pisses me off, because of the basis that statement is made on.
Feel free to call me indian once India officially recognises me as a citizen. Does this make sense? I sometimes wonder what the 'indian' guys on the blog think when I say stuff like this. Do you think it makes sense?
Remember, if attributing certain characteristics to a person based on their skin colour is wrong, it doesn't matter whether the characteristics are positive or negative, both are unwarranted. We are all racist on some level, all of us, but I do try to hate all people equally.
Utter Disgust
Just by chance I came across a few gross clips on www.youtube.com that I wanted to share with the rest of you. I couldn't stop washing my face after seeing the first one.
My lunch outing on Tuesday. Friendships defined
So as I mentioned yesterday, I went to meet up with an old college mate who is now an advocate & solicitor. She says she enjoys the work, but its hard work. I never quite got that though, either you enjoy what you're doing or its hard work. I know its just something people say, an expression if you will. But doesn't enjoying something make it cease to be hard work (the way grinding in an RPG is effortless for those of us that enjoy it but absolute tedium for those that don't).
Had a massive banana leaf lunch since I skipped breakfast, complete with Mutton varuval and chicken peratal. Also got a nice conversation about this other former friend of mine. You see when I started A-Levels I befriended this girl called Ashwini and we basically were friends throughout A-Levels and the Law Degree program. The problem was her personality is exactly like my dad's, and this meant that we used to have arguments on a regular basis, sometime we wouldn't speak for months.
Anyway, about 2 years ago I finally got fed up with her. I realised that this is a friendship that basically caused me annoyance on a regular basis and so I told her to piss off. I always kept the friendship alive I guess because we'd been friends for a long time. Which was stupid, at least to me. Friendships are relationships and if you have a relationship that regulalrly causes you stress you terminate it. Staying just because of the age of the relationship isn't good enough.
Seems a bit weird to blog about it, but yesterday's chat just got me thinking, and I don't know how well the rest of you take friendship. For me, my friendship is conditional, I want entertainment, conversation, activity partners, not people around whom I have to watch what I say, be uncomfortable about talking about certain things etc. Of course for my friends that fulfil this criteria, I will be there for them when they need me, or if they're going through a rough patch. After all, I've got enough annoying people whom I have to tolerate and keep my guard up around...they're called family. So I expect my friends to entertain me, just as I try to entertain them.
TEH scariest mall stalking incident EVAR!!!!
After lunch I walked my friend to her bus and then decided to pay a quick visit to Kota Raya, where I used to buy the bulk of my video games. They've renovated it a bit, but its basically the same shithole it was 2 years ago.
As I was walking to the escalator on the 2nd floor, this guy walked past me and sort of bumped into me, more like a graze. He stopped a few steps behind me, turned around and mumbled something, and started following me. Of course crazy people abound in that area of town so I didn't think much of it. He follows me up talking to himself (at least I think he was), and them calls out to me and says something like "abu abu". I didn't know what the fuck he was saying, so I just gave him the 'hand' (my all powerful move for dealing with Petaling Street beggars and madcaps) and carried on.
After shopping around I get into the lift to head back down, and guess who comes into the lift. Yup, the weird dude. And so he calls me 'thambi' which promptly pisses me off, I hate how ulu people call every young indian looking guy thambi, it implies familiarity. Anyway I ask him what, and he asks me "Mau Blue?"
Yup, my 'stalker' was basically trying to peddle porno to me for one of the DVD shops upstairs. Its tradition I guess, I cannot show my face around that part of town without being offered pornography. I guess I have the porno lover face.
I declined of course, not because of morality, just that I prefer to download my porn these days. Or I just swipe my dad's DVDs and keep the ones I like.
Depression. Adole and the rest of us
Instead of just responding to Adole I thought I'd write a bit here instead. The topic of depression has come up a couple of times this past week with different people. I think its important for us to realise that depression is an affliction that hits all of us at some point or another in our lives. The key to dealing with it is not escapism (eating, drinking, smoking, gaming, etc.) but realisation.
Nothing will kill your life off faster than being depressed. You will cripple your social life either by being 'lazy' or you will drive people away because let's face it, no one wants to hang around a killjoy.You lose motivation to do anything. Depression perpetuates itself and it doesn't just go away in time.
Example. You're depressed with say breaking up with girlfriend, you start being sulky at work and around friends. You're performance at work suffers, and people notice, resulting in depression. Your friends start distancing themselves after awhile, you feel depressed, alone, abandoned. You meet another girl you like, but you spend your time being depressed over liking her, "Oh she'll never go out with me". The depressing wibe you give out makes her avoid dating you, or kills the relationship in the end.
The only real way to fight depression is through awareness or drugs (I mean like prozac, not cocain). Depression is mostly subconscious. You see things happening in a negative light because you're depressed, not because the things that are happening are causing you to be depressed. So to those of you who are depressed, lacking in will, bored, weak....stand up now and get the fuck over it!!!!
P.S. to Adole, I would love to hear about what originally made you depressed. Was it a girl? Work? Family? Think back and let me know what it was that originally made you so 'bored', not the stuff that you feel cranky about now. Forget it if you feel its too personal.
Let me put it this way. You are a ROTTING SACK OF MEAT!!! You will die one day, this I promise you. If you're lucky it won't be that soon. So don't piss your life away being depressed. Act, do, feel, live. Doesn't matter what you do as long as you enjoy it, as long as you feel alive. There's plenty of time to rot in your shell of flesh after life is over, don't do it while you're still breathing.
SPM Results. Does anyone give a shit?
I know Lali has probably received her result by now so congratulations/condolences to her. Here I was thinking Lali was like Kavi's big sister, but I guess I was wrong.
Anyway, does anyone feel like SPM has just degenerated into a big fucking joke? I mean with all the A1s or 1As or whatever being awarded doesn't it just make the whole process meaningless? Take any 1st world school system of your choice, is it held in high regard because they award high grades to their students or because of the quality of their teachers and curicullum?
Although, I loved exams mostly because of the pussies that would faint or cry. Absolutely hilarious. These people are so concerned about the exams, and they do the worst possible thing, they freak out in the exam hall.
So kudos to all our students who scored 16/17/18/2,000,000 As. The world doesn't give a shit. Most of you will go on to do A-Levels/STPM/SAM/an other number of pre-U courses because you got screwed by our education system. A glorious waste of time school was, but at least I got to mee Warlock, Arc and Siriuz.
My dreams
Its not what you think. This isn't about my hopes for the future etc. It's about this dream I had last night. I was in this huge house/masion with this couple who were rejoicing on the birth of their son, they were very adamant that they only want a son to carry on the family name and not a daughter.
Later I was wanderig around the house and went up the stairs and saw this final flight of stairs going all the way up to the attic. In the attic I saw this cupboard with the doors open and the body of a little baby girl with her severed head lying beside it. I whispered "murderers" and the girl's eyes opened and looked right at me, they were orange. I woke up after that, and the ju-on style creaking of my bed didn't help.
Any dream interpreters here? I'm curious if this has any meaning since there was no one I actually know in the dream.
Of gaming, anime and computers
So I was feeling torn for awhile about gaming. As most of you know I'm leaving for the USA later in the year and since I have no career to prioritise here, my priority is finishing as many games as I can since I will most likel be unable to play in the States. Games vs. My Fiancee = games get pwnd by my fiancee everytime. Still, I also have tons of shows to watch, I still haven't seen the 'Bleach' episodes that Siriuz burned for me.
I started playing Digital Devil Saga 2 and Resident Evil Outbreak. I love the music in DDS2 even more than the first. Saly Bluelaguna doesn't have the soundtrack. Outbreak is okay, but has massively long loadtimes. Fortunately its quite short so I should be able to finish it soon.
Here's the opening movies for Digital Devil Saga and Digital Devil Saga 2 respectively. Yeah, I'm into embedding video now.
Gave up on Disgaea 2. I don't like the main characters and I miss Laharl, don't care if he's an optional character. So I decided to let it go instead of sinking in 100+ hours into the game.
Overall, I'll be going on sabbatical from gaming soon to tend to many other aspects of life that I've been neglecting, particularly spending time with my friends in KL that I will actually miss once I go away.
I saw 18 episodes of ".hack//SIGN" and I wanted to blow my brains out. It is so intensely boring and Tsukasa is such a bitch that I don't even care what happens to him/her. Gave it up and tossed the DVDs so I'm not tempted to waste my time on it in the hope's it will get better. I plan to start watching "Bleach" today though.
I'll try to post some art and videos here to give you guys an idea of the kind of stuff I am playing and watching.
I've got a request and for Sai/Warlock: I made the horrible mistake of listening to Ram [I know I know!!] and started updating my windows xp. Sadly the damn genuine nagware got installed even though I had it unchecked and instructed updates to not remind me of it. Anyone know any sites or if you have some kind of crack file please email it to me at navin@yahoo.com I've had no luck since all the links I found are dead due to Microsoft complaints. Gracias!!!!
The question is this. I have my firewall disabled and no other firewall software running, only AVG Antivirus and it has no firewall. Yet my Morpheus and Limewire both log me as firewalled. I'm starting to think that this is why my hamachi is also crapping out. Any ideas?
The End
Well for now. I don't really want to make multiple posts so I might just add in more as the week goes on. I'll update it with date of update next time so you guys will know if I made recent changes.
i never knew that there is actually grammar for singlish, it's like an entire new language or sorts. fun to read and it's almost the same as manglish ler.
Never blogged. Its the first time, Always thought not blogging wasnt a crime, Still do, But i thought id give it a try.
The names Gopi, known to blog favourites magnus n warlock as cLown, to friends as Bumper, and to my love as chellam. I have been aroun for about 23 years, accomplished nil but enjoying life nevertheless. What made me to start typin with these worn out fingers(y?every guy knows y) was probably the lack of DOTA and FUTSAL for the past week(yup u guessed...my only hobbies). Hei warlock.....get ur phone n start making the necessary calls pls......this saturday must have DOTA.........n i hope "the kind one" can make it also.U will see blood by the end of it.
Ok back to me......have been doing nothing lately(as u know) besides watching a few movies.300, Saw 1/2/3,The Holiday. Bout 300 i dont need to mention much....."the kind one" can elaborate better on it. Saw 1/2/3....very nice plot......u cant predict it at all. Make u think of life and how far would u go to stay alive(eg:take out a key that has been surgically implanted into ur eye to escape a skull crushing death trap). The Holiday......a lovey dovey chick flick.....n tats all i can say bout tat.
ok gtg........damn group mates pestering me to meet up in library......they never heard of FREE Men izit? must ask them to go n watch 300....then they will know wat might happen to them if they try n enslave freemen(me) with chores.
til i have a bigger brainwave then today....
p.s:GO AND WATCH 300 SHAUNY BOY(not gonna use ur nick).........ITS NOT COOL IF U HAVENT! U want to be cool rite?(hehehe...love doing this to u man)
Last nite, i watched a movie, which i bought at one of the famous pirated vcd den in kuching titled Pulse. I dunno y i bought that movie in da first place, i just bought it because it's a lelong price with 8 vcds for rm10. For this particular one, the quality is low, the rest are all ok. If any of u have watched the movie, then probably u know what i m talking about, for those who havent, i m all too lazy elaborate lar, not in the typing mood.
i think i m just like those people in da movie, lol somewhat lose my will to live one. Reason? i think life is just too boring for me. I lost will to play games, i lost will to go for diet, i lost will to go socializing, clubbing, yam cha, i lost will to watch movie, i lost will to chat. anything u can think of, also, sometime i lost the will to eat, i just eat because i have nothing better to do at that time. I will live on, but i dun have the will to move on and i hope it's only for the time being. Time stood still for me, everything was moving so rapidly and i was there standing moving nowhere. Everyday, i just hope i can lie on my bed, blast my ayumi songs and just sleep through it till the next day. I thnk this is what boredom can do to anyone. Even i find things to do to occupy my time, boredom seem to attached to me so firmly. Even now, i feel super bored. I dun quite enjoy the life like i used to, always anticipating and planning what to do during work and especially after work. It seems like hanging out at cafes, clubs, karaokes and other places has put me off, whihc i used to like sometime ago.
ah, luckily this blog exist hahah, i visit this blog everyday, and it feel like i m seeing Warlock everyday hahah, and the wonder of msn messenger, i get to chat with Kavi everynite? with her lanciao language (pardon the pun), it really put me to ease. haha, Thanks guys. muakzzzz.......it was just like yesterday that i was in ukm, boredom never existed in my dictionary.
oh, i m attening some motivational talk soon, i hope that will really help me out, by A LOT. i wan to move on, although i have a lot of dreams like going to japan, the will to move on is still low. though, all my dreams are reachable.
**post updated , now time to go into hiding and hope Lali doesn't know where I sleep **
I don't want to say much , just that the movie totally rocked ! Big time !
I watched it twice allready , another 298 more to go ...
The second time I watched it, in Seremban, the audience clapped like crazy at the end of the movie (even the Lockjawed Monster clapped) ! When was the last time you watched a movie where the Malaysian audience applauded at the end. The movie does something to you ... I have a sudden urge to walk around carrying a shield and a spear and kick people who irritate me into the well.
Oh yeah I noticed an uncanny resemblance ...
.. between Lali and Xerxes ! Lali if you ever get mad and want to conquer Greece count me in .. as long as you grant me all my desire, wishes and .. an uniform (in movie joke .. watch to understand .. keep an eye out for Lali , great acting)
So how is the resemblance ? Can anyone see it or am I just a raving lunatic (as the blog title implies) ? Come on , post some more comments people .. I wanna see Lali get flustered. Bwahahahaha.
When I was younger I hated going to weddings... it seemed that all of my aunts and the grand-motherly types used to come up to me, poking me in the ribs and giggling, telling me, "You're Next." They stopped that shit after I started doing the same thing to them at funerals.
The following is a rather interesting set of questions that will give you a glimpse of who you actually are. Answers are for who you are now... not who you were in the past. Post your answers and I'll post the results in a few days time. Have fun!!!
1. When do you feel your best? a) in the morning b) during the afternoon & early evening c) late at night
2. You usually walk... a) fairly fast, with long steps b) fairly fast, with little steps c) less fast, head up, looking the world in the face d) less fast, head down e) very slowly
3. When talking to people you... a) stand with your arms folded b) have your hands clasped c) have one or both of you hands on your hips d) touch or push the person whom you are talking e) play with your ear, touch your chin, or smotth your hair
4. When relaxing you sit with... a) your knees bent with your legs neatly side by side b) your legs crossed c) your legs stretched out or straight d) one leg curled under you
5. When something really amuses you, you react with... a) a big, appreciative laugh b) a laugh, but not a loud one c) a quiet chuckle d) a sheepish smile
6. When you go to a party or a social gathering you... a) make a loud entrance so everyone notices you b) make a quiet entrance, looking around for someone you know c) make the quietest entrance, trying to stay unnoticed
7. You're working very hard, concentrating hard, you're interrupted, do you... a) welcome the break b) feel extremely irritated c) vary between these two extremes
8. Which of the following colours do you like most? a) red or orange b) black c) yellow or light blue d) green e) dark bue or purple f) white g) brown or gray
9. When you are in bed at night, in those last few moments before going to sleep, you lie... a) stretched out on your back b) stretched out face down on your stomach c) on your side, slightly curled d) with your head on one arm e) with your head under the covers
10. You often dream that you are... a) falling b) fighting or struggling c) searching for something or somebody d) flying or floating e) you usually have dreemless sleep f) your dreams are always pleasent
..:VIRGO:. The VirginDominant in relationships. Sexy.someone loves them right now. Freak inbed. Always wants the last word.Caring. Smart. Intellectual.Attractive. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talkto. Hard to forget Love at firstsight. Everything you ever wanted.Easy to please. The one and only.Ultimate sexiness. 7 years of bad luckif you do not forward.>
..:SCORPIO:. The sex addictCan be mean. EXTREMELY sexy.Intelligent. Energetic. Predict future.Most erotic. (Freak in bed.) (GREATkisser.) Always get what they want.Sexy. Attractive. Easy going. Lovesbeing in long relationships.Talkative. The sexiestever....Romantic. Caring. 4 years ofbad luck ifyou do not forward.>
..:LIBRA:. The lame loverVery pretty. Very romantic. Nice toeveryone They meet. Their Love isone of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet.Have own unique sexiness. Mostcaring person you will ever meet!Amazing in Bed..!!! Did I say Amazingin Bed? not the kind of person youwant to #### with... you might end upcrying... the most irresistible. 9years of bad luck if you do notforward.>
..:ARIES:. The LiarOutgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Notone to #### with. Erotic. Funny.Take you on trips to the moon in bed.Excellent kisser EXTREMELY sexy.Loves being in long relationships.=)Addictive. Loud. best in bed. 16years of bad luck if you do notforward.>
..:AQUARIUS:. Does it in the waterTrustworthy. Sexy. Great kisser. Oneof a kind. Loves being in long-termrelationships. Extremely energetic.Unpredictable. Will exceed yourexpectations. Not a Fighter, But willKnock your lights out. Amazing inbed, THE BEST LOVERS BETTER THANEVERYONE! 2 years of bad luck if you donot forward.>
..:GEMINI:. Does TwosomesNice. Love is one of a kind. Greatlisteners Very Good in bed. Lover nota fighter, but will still knock youthe #### out. Trustworthy. Alwayshappy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERYFORGIVING. Loves to make out. Hasa beautiful smile. Generous. Strong.ULTRA SEXY. THE MOST IRRESISTABLE.9 years of bad luck if you do notforward.>
..:LEO:. The Lion in bedGreat talker. Sexy and passionate.Laid back. Knows how to have fun. Isreally good at. Great kisser.Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down toearth.Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Lovesbeing in long relationships.Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rareto find. Good when found. 7 yearsof bad luck if you do not forward.>
..:CANCER:. The CutieMOST AMAZING KISSER. Very high ###appeal. Great in bed!!! Love is oneof a kind. Very romantic. Most caringperson you will ever meet!Entirely creative. Extremely randomand proud of it. Freak in bed.Spontaneous. Great tellin stories. Nota Fighter, But will Knock yourlights out if it comes down to it.Someone you should hold on to. 12years of bad luck if you do notforward.>
..:PISCES:. The Piece of assCaring and kind. Smart. Center ofattention. Too Sexy, DAMN IT. Veryhigh ### appeal. Has the last word.The best to find, hardest to keep.Fun to be around. Freak in the sheets.Extremely weird but in a goodway. Super good in bed. Good Sense ofHumor!!! Thoughtful. A partner forlife. Always gets what he or shewants. Loves to joke. Very popular.Silly, fun and sweet. 5 years of badluck if you do not forward.>.
.:CAPRICORN:. The passionate LoverLove to bust. Nice. Sassy.Intelligent. Sexy. Predict future.Irrestible, awesome kisser. Lovesbeing in long relationships. Greattalker. Always gets what he or shewants. BY FAR the BEST in BED. Verysexy. Coolest. Loves to own Gemini'sin sports. Extremely fun. Loves tojoke. Loves to be your first. Soyou'll
Hello…. I know its been sometime since I’ve last blogged…bla..bla..the usual apologies…ok…that’s it…I know u guys get it rite?
Actually after reading a few post and also all the funny forwarded posts here I jus thought… I should share my experience being treated in HUKM just to get us all seriously thinking….Whats wrong wit our general hospitals?????
Last week, I was all fine sitting in the hall watching Nip/Tuck finale in the condo where I live with my frenz and all of a sudden I had lockjaw….and because I was so bloody scared and panicked I couldn’t breathe so I was also having hyperventilation….wow…. Great rite…so all my house mates also panicked and they called for an ambulance which came like around within 15 minutes of callin….i tot it wuz cool….but that’s maybe b’cuz the place im stayin is like only 10 minutes to HUKM…(hey why that x-tra 5minutes?)
Okay, so they came in the house made me breath through plastic bag….then all I remembered were waking up when they brought me into the hospital… I was still breathing heavily….and couldn’t talk…because of my lockjaw…and plus my whole body felt numb bcuz of hypervent….so the silly doctors were askin me whats ur name? wer ru from? Did u take any medication before this...Please talk…? All I did wuz cry…ya..i know sounds lame …but hey…wat wud u do…wen ur in a situation wer u cant utter a word and u cant even write and show them….But the best is yet to come…Im not sure if that lady wuz a trainee doc or nurse she asked me….”kamu reti cakap b.m tak’? I wuz like wtf…I can even close my mouth and u expect me to speak to u….damn u all…!!! And then they, started poking and piercing my arms…taking blood samples and then came a smart ass nurse who checked pressure in the same hand as the hand they took the blood sample…and I could see like blood clots around the place where they just took the blood…I wuz screaming at that point….she jus started pressing that place and applied pressure…thank god at least she knew wat to do…after that she jus took a bunch of gauze and sticked it to the place and walked of…..then came another one she took the other hand and poked it I dunt know wat they call it but that is what they used to inject medicine and drips…so after all the tranquilizers,….yes I know I wuz crying too loud so they had to give me mild tranquilizers….they also gave some pain killers and soon after that all I know wuz that my jaw wus okay…they could close and open back…I was ecstatic…but both my arms and all the places they had poked and pierced my body felt so painful…..so after like 5 hours of being in the emergency room… they let me go….but only thing that is left till today for me is the pain on both my arms causing vein damage according to another doctor of mine…So, im fine now…but never will I ever step foot into a general hospital ever….. the end.
Well,my brother tot that this would make an interesting topic to blog about…so there u go…happy…oh ya…and im the lockjaw monster if u still have trouble figuring it out…hehehe jus kidding…alrite…get to u guys soon…enjoy reading….bye.
ok lar, since Warlock said about self introductory, maybe i should introduce myself also just like what Lali did ^^, i havent properly introduced myself also.
I was born and raised in Kuching, Sarawak, yes, the Cat City, but the city is itself does not have that many cats, it's just like any other cities. But one thing i like about Kuching is that it's clean and it's a verdure city. I m sorry that say that the air in KL is quite different from what we have here. In KL, sometime i can hardly breathe because the air feels very heavy with saturated smoke and dust. And i pity the greeneries around KL are for having to endure to such condition. As a plant people, i feel sad for them. About Kuching, everywhere you go, u cant miss a spot without greeneries. A spot by my definition here is an area big enough for a shop lot. Trees and flowers are everywhere inside the city, that is y it is also dubbed as the Garden City and city has been awarded by being er....i dunno what position but it about the cleanest city in da world. Kuching is just like any other town and city, where people walk in jeans and tee.....and also mini skirts. I usually get some intimidating questions like "does the people in Sarawak wear cawat?" or "do you guys leave in jungle" sort of things when i study in west penisular. I just laugh off at the questions and tell them "yea, we live on trees, but we have elevator inside the trees". Seriously. i guess Kuching is not much publicised. And on the some of the movie that was shot in Kuching the the Tale of the Red shoes (i forgot the title) and the most recent one, The Possessed, the movie itself is like potraying Sarawak as the land of the supernatural, and i think it's kinda scary for people who are trying to visit Sarawak. Cause the scenes in the movies lean more towards mystery.
I m old already, so, let's just skip the age topic. I m Warlock's coursemate in UKM, partner in crime, neighbour in our hostel and blah blah blah, oh, he is my punching bag sometime ^^ i just like to disturb him so much. Sai and Siriuz were my neighbour also, hahah, and we all used to play games together. How time flies, it was just like yesterday. I truely enjoy my time with them, hahaha, stress free. Thanks to the wonder of internet, we are all still manage to keep in touch.
On my family, i think my family is rather conservative, more than liberalism. Being the eldest son in the family and the eldest grandson in the family, i sorta supposedly have this responsible to show good examples to my siblings or cousins. And i m always asked if i was getting married anytime soon in any family gathering. Just lucky enough that there is no such rule that the eldest have to get married first the only followed by the younger, cause my sister is getting married this year, lol or else i will be pressurized to find a wife. We r quite free to do what we want, just that my mum is rather of a control freak.
My hobbies? erm........i like to play games, and i used to be an avid game player. i have slowed down a bit lately, i just kinda lost mood to play games. So many things are lingering in my mind and i get constant headache. I like Ayumi Hamasaki badly, i want to meet her at least ONCE before i die, that is one of my wish. I used to be a staunch fan of The Cranberries before Ayumi stride along. Alanis Morisette too. I love to chat. If i m free, i can chat heaps of empty talks. I talk cock a lot. ^^ I like to eat, but at the same time, i cant eat too many things. My guilt feeling surpass my craving for food. So it's usually see but no touch. I m pretty much used to it already.
So, if u all happen to meet someone online with the nice Adole-Aileron-Alucard, either one, it could be me. My Dota name is Leingod. Aileron is adapted (actually curi ^^) from Tales of Destiny, Alucard very obviously from Castlevania, mirror of draculA, Leingod is from Star Ocean 3 and Adole is an abbr. from Adolescent.
so, it's nice to meet u guys here, u guys have been great help to me. i m happy to know all of u. I will continue posting here (in fact my mind contemplates this blog as my diary bleh :P).
One last thing, if i have ever posted or mentioned something sensitive here, please feel free to scold me, or anything, somehow, just let me know so that i can change, ^^ i m not perfect u know.
